Rethinking

I'm used to rewriting my commentary on here, but the past 3 days it's been the part I dread the most. I like reading it for info, but reposting it doesn't make too much sense and I think has taken the spirit out of the letter sotospeak.

I don't really know what to do now to be honest. I think I'll still read it, and still write anything I connect with, but for the most part, I want to focus on my RELATIONSHIP with Jesus.

That being said, in 1st John I'm on chapter 2 and it seems . . . . weird. I LOVE the beginning verse about Jesus interceeding for us. And the ones about not loving the world, but I don't really care for the rest.

I'm still fixated on what it means/would look like to "be in the light" like Jesus was. I want cummunion with God and I know if I love Him I have to keep His commands. My commentary also said a lot of it is confessing sin when the light exposses it. Which I did this morning. I know of one in paticular that I'm somewhat ashamed of at the moment but trying to make right. *Sigh*

I want to fall in love with Jesus. Knowing the background/history is cool and defnintely benifical, but I don't want that to be my goal. I want to talk with Him, walk with Him, sing to Him, enjoy being with Him. I want my life on earth to be as close as what it must have been like to be in the Garden as possible. - minus the fall of humanity that is ; )

There's such a hussle and bussle to our everyday lives. Right now it's school, working out, homework, dinner, chores, trying to spend time with Nate, tv shows, facebook. I don't want to exclude any of those, but I do want to invite Jesus into each of them. I'm still learning how our relationship works. I talk to Him a lot more and I'm not going to worry about talking to much (not listening) b/c I beleive I listen when I obey what I know He's telling me.

Anyway, 2nd john seems somewhat dry (Sorry God!:( ) beyond the verses I said I liked. We'll see if my heart/head will change on that.