My Golden Calf

Wow. After making Nate's breakfast I came in here and wanted to go to my bible first. I think it's true that the more you taste, the more you want. Yesterday I went through the highlighted parts of Jeremiah in my bible and had a deep talk with God. I asked Him to forgive me and to restore me into a right relationship with Him.

Right now, I'm seeing that the way I interact with food needs to change. I keep trying to fix it my own way: looking stuff up, following ppl who have had success, trying to put the pieces together in my mind and experimenting with different factors to try and get fit! It's exhausting and despite my best efforts, hasn't been going as I planned.

I need a biblical perspective. Candace Cameron Bure's book Reshaping It All, talked about how we can try to morally sweep out the house, but as Jesus said in Matthew, the demon will come back with 7 more. It's not enough to do things in my own strength. I need spiritual Reformation. I need for God to change me and for the Holy Spirit to lead me moment by moment as Christ enables me to follow through.

She also gave me chills in writing about the people of Israel and the golden calf. God brought them deliverance but they wanted to go back to captivity before waiting long enough to see God come through and do His work. They clung to and worshiped their golden calf instead of God. O how that describes me and food.

So I want to hand this to Him. Doing it for the right reasons as He changes my desires. I've also emailed some Christian women I know asking for prayer. It was so embarrassing! I know it shouldn't be but still - it was hard to do. But I think there's power in that and I need all the help I can get ;D

Morgan